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[23 Nov 2007|10:13pm]
swept away
all who are not lost.
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[28 Sep 2007|02:05am]
the rain drips the rain drips
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the rain drips.
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[02 Sep 2007|09:46pm]
my opinion on just about everything lately has been zero to negative.
things slip through here and there.
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[08 Aug 2007|03:50am]
i don't think i'm an insomniac, i just think i don't know when to quit.
i make decisions about the music i'm going to listen to and then i never do.
i make decisions about the music i'm going to fall asleep to as i'm getting up to put music on to fall asleep to.
i don't know how to lead a balanced life.
i haven't been writing creatively a lot because i have a lot of things sorted out.
my first reaction to hearing that it was raining was to go sit outside.
i think i might be that really flaky kid that i always got frustrated with other people for being.
i know a new brand of love that feels exponentially stronger and longer lasting than i have ever felt in any previous relationship.
there is not enough time in any given dayweekmonthyear; i rely on the fact that i will live to an old age.
i frequently get premonitions about me dying in a car related incident.
i am terrified of heights.
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too much good in the world. [26 May 2007|04:32am]
russian circles.


big instrumentals with an explosions in the sky vibe.
but with an edge.


this IS really happening.
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MISSION. [17 May 2007|09:54am]
I used to be okay with caffeine. Immune, even.
Apparently, not anymore.

I had to get a new windshield today for my mom's car. Got up at 7:15am, showered, Sam Cooke-d, left. Got to the glass place at 7:59a, went across the street to Dunkin Donuts at 8:04a. Ordered a large french vanilla coffee, light & sweet.

Started drinking it at 8:07a, and read Dune in the process of waiting. Twenty minutes pass, I start losing concentration, forty minutes pass, my breathing is coming in hurricanes. One hour later my book is shaking.

It's 9:45a right now, and I'm back in the glass place, and I can't sit still. I feel like the one customer, and the one receptionist are staring me down, wishing for me to sit perfectly still.

So I sit perfectly still.
And I still feel them staring.

She picks up a phone call, helps a customer, half hangs up and starts talking on her Nextel. The phone hardly in its home starts hyperventilating in busy signal talk.

GaGaGaGaGaGaGaGaGaGa...

No one notices.

GaGaGaGaGaGaGaGaGaGa...

Rapid-fire digital, and no one notices.

A handicapped person comes in,
that whole arm-stalk routine,
leaning the body forward,
dragging the legs behind.

The desk-face asks,
"Can I help you?"

-- a fucking loaded question.




I think she hungup the phone,
&/OR
the tanbark is hot lava.
Comments: 2 In the Chamber - Look Down the Barrell.

[06 Apr 2007|09:42am]
a moonless sky.
it's just smudgy is all.
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[05 Apr 2007|11:30pm]
we leave tonight.
goodbye florida.
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[23 Mar 2007|01:53am]
I think it's a valid claim to say that I'm the only person to EVER wear a Fairweather shirt on South Beach.

Can't say I didn't leave my mark.
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depravity. [22 Mar 2007|05:05am]
If i hear "spring break 07, baby!" one more time, there's gonna be deep, deep trouble. South Beach attracts a horror show of people. I'd say make it stop, but I'm moving. So keep it coming. For years. Just keep this coming.
Comments: 16 In the Chamber - Look Down the Barrell.

[14 Jul 2006|04:41pm]




this is in an ad on myspace.
doesn't get much better than that.

i named him JAMMOTH, because he's obviously some mammoth/slam dunk hybrid.
Comments: 2 In the Chamber - Look Down the Barrell.

[12 Jul 2006|03:59am]
straining from turning
my gravity into a liability.
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[29 Jun 2006|05:46am]
so this is something that goes by for months without updating, apparently? okay, then.

i look back on these archives, and i wonder when and how i would think to update it. to throw something together worth remembering, or worth reading about. it really stuns me that somehow, someway, this was a channel. some days, this, really, is how i connected.

i'm on the south eastern peninsula of our country. and i work right on south beach. right on south beach. something i never thought i would say in my life. you could call me someone who hated the water. back last year, before i met up with michelle, lee, and three boys along with tina at a beach somewhere i have no idea to get to. back with friends. it was at that point, really, i'm not kidding, that i took my shirt off for the first time in front of a live public audience. i guess without cameras or spotlights, though, it's not an audience, just a populace. just a day. that day, i got tanned and burned. and i think, that night, we went to jones beach and had a barbecue where tina showed up late, and i had insane sunburn.

today, my chest is sunburned.
i went to the pool today alone, and listened to days away's album, mapping an invisible world. i just wanted to. that's how i did.

i'm in florida.
what?
tell that to my 22 year old self.
"you'll be in florida, man."

i write, now, in small, scattered bursts that connect to random pieces of random collections.
i used to write one thing at a time, but i guess that just slowed me down too much.
waste.

i haven't shuffled my itunes since i was home. lately, i've been shuffling my ipod, and i forgot how much good stuff i have on here. my goodness. for example, i just threw on a common song (far from common) off the bat on purpose because bilal is on it. and now i want to hear the full be record.

i miss home.
and sometimes,
i ask too many questions.

the left side of my brain just tried to scroll up and read what i'd written so far.
the right side of my brain said "no, sir. no, sir. you'll be reading this when you awake."

i got new headphones yesterday, and they work like a magic.
earbuds. the link.

so, hey livejournal.
i've got short hair.
i've got a tan that can't be beat.
check out this contrast.


i wonder how She would feel to know that out of everything happening, she's the thing that it all comes back to at the end of the day. the bikinis and european conversation, the hip hop studio and southern rap tutorials, road trips, beach, endless single serving friends, drinks with random strangers in the hot afternoons, etc. i wonder how she would feel, across blue sequined/patters, feeling against patterned, tapered, grooved metal linings, if i told her, brown hair/brown eyes, eyebrows and all, "hold up, hold up... i miss you." i wonder if this letter (marked june 23rd, commented "what have you got to lose") will ever get sent. i think of her in terms that fool me into thinking i stiill know her.)

a sunburned chest.
"i've watched the change in you like you never had wings, and now you feel so alive."
and now you feel so alive.

HELLO. MY NAME IS
a memory.

surprised to see every time the TV is still on.
to see that the sun is still NOT up.
to think i'm brown.
to not know languages.
to see smiles before knowing names.
to touch.
for lights.

i miss:
carissa ann santos.
rahul gilani.
brian martinez.
kerry o'hara.
michael & kim hernandez.
nicole przybojewski.



tell me something i might've missed.
ask me anything you'd want answered.
anonymous or not.




songs heard during this post
common - it's your world
the movielife - single white female
saves the day - eulogy
northstar - pollyanna
radiohead - dollars and cents
mindless self indulgence - dickface
blood red - peeping tom
onyx - slam
nas ft. busta rhymes - suicide bounce (did nothing while listening to this track - the man's a genius; easily my favorite mc)
mudvayne - nothing to gein
onyx - getdafucout
idiot pilot - moerae
keepsake - she hums like a radio
lamb of god - vigil
silent majority - expectations
deftones - change in the house of flies (acoustic)
sisters of mercy - walk away
snake river conspiracy - casualty
serapis - the ancient bone sabre of zumicalis
odb - brooklyn zoo
scarlet - suicide soundtrack
etta james - at last
etta james - at last
etta james - at last
etta james - at last
etta james - at last
etta james - at last
etta james - at last
etta james - at last
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bienvenido [17 Jun 2006|01:41am]
i'm not a mad rapper,
i'm just an MC with a temper;
mayonaisse colored benzes
i push miracle whips.

i meet people from other nations.

this is the mothafuckin sunshine state.
Comments: Look Down the Barrell.

[31 May 2006|08:30pm]
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[25 Apr 2006|03:13am]
this entire thread has me crying with laughter.

page 1 is kinda slow, but it picks up around 2 & 3.
Comments: 4 In the Chamber - Look Down the Barrell.

[13 Mar 2006|01:35am]
saves the day - through being cool.


my favorite album of all time.
mark my words.
Comments: 11 In the Chamber - Look Down the Barrell.

a scanner darkly. [19 Feb 2006|11:07pm]
this takes your face and rearranges it.
Comments: 2 In the Chamber - Look Down the Barrell.

[12 Feb 2006|09:28pm]
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[20 Jan 2006|11:52am]
it's because we're doing everything in our power
to shut out the good times.
Comments: 6 In the Chamber - Look Down the Barrell.

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